Mother's Day & Our 38 Month LID-Anniversary....

Wow! Could it get any better! We've hit another month LID Anniversary (although we thought we wouldn't) without our referral, and to make it worse, it's another Mother's Day without knowing who Micalee is & seeing her picture (which we thought we would have by now!). Thanks to this wonderful Swine Flu (here piggy, piggy), we don't know when we'll finally see our little girl's face for the first time! I'm hoping with less media coverage, and reports that it seems to be leveling off, that China will resume matching, and we will get our referral soon! I still can't believe the luck! After this excruciating long wait, to finally be so incredibly close to seeing her for the first time & then to be placed in absolute limbo! I still can't believe it! We have NO IDEA when we will get our referral. Our agency has no idea. They just keep checking everyday with the CCAA to see if matching has resumed. I don't know what to expect. Even if they do finally match & send referrals, will they allow us to travel? Right now, some provinces are not making Civil Affairs appointments (which means no adoption or travel). There are families with our agency that received their referrals last month who are still waiting for Travel Approval. Everything is so up in the air, and I just can't stand that! I could handle the waiting better if I had SOME idea of what to expect!!! This is so sad & so frustrating! And I can't stop eating (stress eater here!) & I'm too tied to the computer looking for any positive rumors to go exercise, so by the time we do get our referral, I should have gained at least 50 pounds (here piggy, piggy!)!!!